Chapter 1 :: Simple goodbye

Published: 01-11-06 - Last update: 01-11-06

Comments: veiled. I wanted to imagine what Kaori could say to Ryo. I hope that you will like that. Good reading.

Chapter: 1

To live… what’s a pretty word. In our underworld, we should not stick to it too much. Death can emerge from everywhere. from a building, a crossroads, a pavement. It is necessary to be vigilent, always vigilent. Never to lower its guard, never to forget that all can stop.  

To be more fears, to be strongest. But to be also nearest to death. Never to leave quiet, always to fear for him, always to fear for his life. To request. Unceasingly to request. Always to request, so that he returns to me healthy and except.  

It is true, I am not very strong. Perhaps I do not aim well just, but I am there. I am there for him, I am there against him. To look at him, feel him, help him, admire him, love him: that it why I am in life.  

To love him. Because nothing gives any more force. To assist in the heart. To give him a reason to return at life.  

Because his life, it is my life. And my life, it is his life. I fight for him. He fights for me. He is my heart, my love.  

No matter what occurs, no matter what happens , he will be always ready for me. To risk the impossible, to risk his life. Because I am a beautiful woman, his beautiful wife.  

But in the name of who, in the name of what have I the right to have his life thus? Who, one day, said that he should always take care of me? He thinks of us, our future. But let us can? Let us must? Let us be entitled to a future? In such an underworld… In such a life?  

Oh Cupid! Why have you touched us with your arrows. Love for us is prohibited. It is to endanger itself perpetually and mutually. It is to give up a freedom how much important. It is to depend on the different one. To become affectionate.  

Ryo my love! Ryo my heart! You changed my life, you became my future. You are everything for me, you are the moon of my obscure evenings, the sun which each morning enables me to advance. Ryo, my Ryo, I love you!  

I love you. Yes I love you. I love you too much. I would not survive if you died. Then promise me to live. One day you asked me to say to you “I do” for the life. This day, I gave up my freedom, to live with you, in the cage of your heart.  

Ryo I already lost so much. My father, my mother, my brother. You, I do not want to lose you.  

And while you sleep peacefully, while I look at you smiling in one of these rare moment when you are in peace, I come to retract.  

Ryo, as I would have liked to say you "I do". To be your wife, your half for the remainder of my life. But you know it well is impossible. You and me we love us too much. And we do not have the right.  

How much time I failed to lose you because of my awkwardnesses, my unconsciousness, my unconcern… my jealousy. Ryo, oh Ryo, please forgives me! I am not that women who is necessary for you! To want to live at your sides would be a big risk for you, selfishness for me.  

As long as we will feel in love, we will be dependent. It does not matter the age which we will have; also it does not matter the distance which will separate us. If you disappeared, I died. You are the breath of my life. And me I am a poison for you.  

That is why I decided to leave from there, to move away from you. Far from me, you will live. Far from me you will open out. I love you and I will suffer. But I love you, therefore I will survive. Because  

Chapter: 1